social butterfly 10:23

Summer will be here before I know it.
Summer will bring out the scorching hot sun.
Summer will have everyone going to the beach.
Summer will have everyone dressed half nude.
Summer will have pools.
Summer will ice cream.
Summer will have parties.
Summer will consist of no school.
Summer will have bike rides.
Summer will consists of spontaneous adventures.
Summer will have nights we black out.
Summer will have days we can sleep forever.

but summer…..
Summer will consist of you going back home to San Francisco.
I don’t know what will happen.
I don’t know what the future has in store for us.
We’ve been together literally everyday for the past two months, and it’s been great… more than great.
It’s been fun, crazy, cute, annoying, sexy, spontaneous, smokey, all mixed up in our relationship. My feelings for you grow…
but summer……
Summer will have us apart for a long time period.
Long distance relationship.?….
*sigh*
Summer will define where this goes.
👧👦💘

That conversation you guys had when you first met about not wanting to be in a relationship any time soon, that you are too busy to be dealing with a boyfriend/girlfriend but you are still down to get to know each other which leads to hanging out every other night, To watching netflix every other night and fall asleep but be nothing than just friends. Months pass, and it is still the same, then that one night when you are just having a regular conversation about life and realize that you both caught feelings but don’t know how to feel about it because you honestly don’t want to get attached to anyone but it is too late……

when I look at this picture… it’s hard to believe that that is me. the guy behind me, that’s Billy. He runs my twitter for my career. He sends out tweets of what I’m doing and motivational thoughts. He’s my partner for McHype media productions. He watches my every move makes sure I’m doing everything right. Billy J.
The one in front of me, Raalow Street, he is the mastermind behind the event Billy and I broadcasted.

I recently received an email of a paying offer to stay working with them and build up my broadcasting career. and believe me, it’s what I’ve been wanting to do all my life. get paid to do what I love. but… school….. I have to stay in school. I don’t want to drop out of school but at the same time, this is an opportunity of a life time. I’d be getting paid to travel to New York summer 2013.
how crazy is that…
it’s not like I can talk to anyone about this because no one knows how I feel or what I want… only I know…
it’s just…. frustrating.

up close aha this app is funny (Taken with Cinemagram)

i have a lot to say…. but I don’t necessarily know how to word it.
I have a lot to say… but I don’t know how even start
I have a lot to say… walking into your office was supposed to be just business… didn’t know we’d have chemistry
I have a lot to say… running into you at the gym was just a coincidence that we both had the day off
I have a lot to say…. but I have no idea how you would take it
I have a lot to say… but I don’t want to say the wrong thing
I have a lot to say…. but what if what I say causes me failure
I have a lot to say… my heart is too big
I have a lot to say… my mind goes wild my stomach starts to ache
I have a lot to say… being with you for the past five months have been fun
I have a lot to say… waking up to your warm chest makes me
never want to get out of bed
I have a lot to say… I hate when you have to get up early for work I never want you to get out of bed
I have a lot to say… I didn’t want to get used to spending 3/7 nights watching netflix til we fall asleep
I have a lot to say… making eye contact in the dark in the funniest thing ever
I have a lot to say… watching you cook, I couldn’t take my eyes off you
I have a lot say… I’m just a busy person who can not and will not commit
I have a lot to say… im too young to settle down… you’re 22 with a different mindset
I have a lot to say… the way you looked at my at dinner the other night said 1,000 things
I have a lot to say… I just don’t know if this is what I want
I have a lot to say… i feel like I’m in too deep and I need to stop
I have a lot to say… but at the same time I’m speechless….

volume (Taken with Cinemagram)

At this fancy shmancy hotel/restaurant in #Hollywood for my internship! Rehearsal for the event on the 30th! I’m so excited!😃😭✨ my #dream is coming #reality 📝🎬📷🎥 (at The Renaissance Restaurant)

windy day, waiting for class. college grind. (Taken with Cinemagram)